.,eighteen at twenty-six......

.,"michaelangelo villegas angeles, malugod kitang binabati ngayong araw ng iyong kapanganakan. pagpalain ka nawa ng Diyos!..."- this is the very first message that i have received at 12:06:33 am.... haizzzz..... i always look at my phone every 2:00am or so... everytime... even during normal days... and this is the very first message that my heavy eyes have read... and then i smiled... "may bumati na pala sa akin..." hehehe... tsike... i appreciate your effort on waiting for that time to arrive.... thank you so much.... then as they say, the rest is now history.... i have received a lot of greetings through different mediums... and everything made my heart jump of its pericardial sac... there are a lot of greetings and a lot of things to do.... i do not always look at my phone to see who are those who 'remembers me...' and that is also the reason why i make a lot of issues with important people... (you know it, when the message is so important but then you can just read it at about 5 or six hours passed from the time that it was sent... or you have received it.... ) well i feel so sorry 'bout that...
know what? i just realized by now that it is also hard to have a wide circle of friends.... well, one disadvantage i have seen is that, i do not know to whom should i pay attention my attention first.. my high school friends?... or the present ones?.... i feel like i am being crushed between two huge pile of stones... i tell you guys, its really hard to be in between... i have made a commitment between my college friends earlier than any other groups.... but i felt guilty when i received the text greetings of my high school friends and bestfriends.... some says...
"nu bang balita dyan?..." ;
"happy birthday poh... san tau?..." ;
"happy birthday prend, mis u poh" ;
"oi wla ka bang plano nyan?bday e.."
and the most hurting and pressuring and very giultying one... came from my 'bestfrend'-
"kel zj 2. D2 q 101 hnhntay kta..." huwhhhhhhhaaaaaaattttttttt??????...... i was really shocked when i have read that text message.... what was the time?.... Oh My God!!! that was 03:21:59pm and i have just read it now.... its already 7:09pm.... that was about four hours ago?.... he waited for me.... huh!!!!..... i was so busy on entertaining my 'new' friends... that i have forgotten to take even a little peek on my 'ugly phone'..... i feel so guilty.... how dare i do that to him?.... even though it was not my intention i really felt so much guilt within me.... haizzzz. its my birthday!!!..... but i am not so happy about that thing that had happened.... 'mi companera' said... "magsori ka na lang... sabihin mo may klase ka tsaka busy ka kamu kanina..... kaya hindi mo nabasa...." which is all true.... i had to take a quiz for our last subject and then put so much attention on my friends.... i am not blaming them.... i am blaming myself.... what kind of a person am i?... haizzzz..... i really feel so sad about that thing.....
"sorry 'bestfrend'...." it has never been my intention to keep you waiting for nothing.....
i do not know if i am that worthy of your time.... and with all my heart....
"i am sincerely sorry...."