"True love may come more than once in a lifetime...."
"The last time i felt like this..."
-Words by: Alan Bergman and Marilyn Bergman
Music by: Marvin Hamlisch
Sung by: Johnny Mathis and Jane Oliver
Hello, I don't even know your name, but I'm hopin' all the same
This is more than just a simple hello.
Hello, do I smile and look away? No, I think I'll smile and stay
To see where this might go.
'Cause the last time I felt like this, I was falling in love,
Falling and feeling, I'd never fall in love again.
Yes, the last time I felt like this, was long before I knew
What I'm feeling now with you.
Hello, I can't wait till we're alone, somewhere quiet on our own
So that we can fall the rest of the way.
I know that before the night is thru, I'll be talking love to you,
Meaning every word I say.
'Cause the last time I felt like this I was falling in love,
Falling and feeling, I'd never fall in love again.
Yes, the last time I felt like this, was long before I knew
What I'm feeling now with you.
Oh, the last time I felt like this I was falling in love,
Falling and feeling, I'd never fall in love again.
Yes, the last time I felt like this, was long before I knew
What I'm feeling now with you.
....a very heart warming song in the course of the midnight blue... deep sentiments... emotions...
and the feeling of Love...
a one true love...
"The heart can remember what the mind might forget..."
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Wednesday, February 25, 2009
.,a christian catholic...
"Turn Away from Sin and Believe in the Holy Gospel..."
.,these words i have saved into my mind... after about four or six months time (i think...) i am able to go back at the catholic church just this afternoon for an Ash Wednesday Mass... the one i used to be at regularly every Sundays with my parents for seventeen(17) years or so...
my parents was raised in a pure blooded catholic family and are very loyal to the church ever since... they respect other religions who believes in the same God as ours but they are not open for influences, or other ideas coming from different religions...
i can say that i have grown and was raised as a God-fearing individual by my parents but was not exposed to other different sects of religions Christianity have... i actually pray only occasionally not every night when i was a child... yes, i was a catholic by name... i was made to believe that there is but one God but i was not aware that there are other religions, so many of them who proclaims the names of their own great Gods...
i was curious about how My God looks like when i was a child... i remember i was so afraid of looking at those statue 'saints' at the top of the altar... their eyes were fiery... i was like a coward soldier fighting in a battle running back to retreat when my eyes accidentally sees those wood carvings which are even larger than a life-size statue at times... and i have no idea those were just interpretations of the wide-scoped human imagination... it even reached a time when i was on high school i have thought of being a priest... although i have not got even a simple experience on serving the church... all i know is that i have already memorized what priests says when the mass is now at the part for the Holy Communion... to take the bread (which represents His body)and the wine (as His blood...) and at the part when we sing Our Father with a tune... holding hands and then letting go.... i wonder how my life would be like if i am (supposedly) studying in a seminary... i guess i would be better... and be talking of Bible Verses all the time...
I started reading the Bible when i was on third year... through the influence of a one good friend who is a Christian...
i just finished Genesis until i reached my college exploration... i met a group of Christian friends on which i was able to hear other sides of the 'Writings' clearly and more vividly... that was the time when i was made to believe that there really is a God... i think some people wouldn't believe it that i have made one of the biggest mistake others couldn't ever think of... that i have doubted that there really is a powerful and a very loving God living within every peoples lives... until i was proved to be wrong...
my eyes were opened to see the absence and/ or the deficits of my childhood religion... to cut the story short, i was previously introduced by my fellow classmates/friends to a God-loving student org... i was actively participating before until i laid low... one of my Christian friend organized a cell group who meets regularly for film showings, Bible learning's and the likes which is composed of students who wants to open their eyes to the knowledge the Lord wants them or us to gain or have.... we have made it travelling smoothly... from many... to four... to three... and then two plus Her... plus the Guy up watching us...
new semester... i was thinking of being converted as a Christian... a Born again Christian... i just thought that by doing so can mean a closer relationship with God because of their teachings and praising... and secondary... or maybe third follows- my passion for singing... (the worshiping part)...
I have attended my Christian Friend's Church... with another 'friend'... i can say that that was an "A" for effort cause we woke up early and travelled far just to attend church and hear the words of God...
not until i realized things.... things which bothered me... my mom doesn't want any members of our family to change our religion... "We were brought up as Catholics and we must stay the way we are...", that's her reason... and she wont agree with my reason that i am just getting or rather wanting a deeper relationship with the Lord and not changing my faith in Him... maybe she's just thinking i won't go with her and papa in the Catholic church when that thing happens...(when i get converted...)
my point is that, i have not chosen to be a catholic myself... that's what i was taught when i was growing... a part of their good upbringing for their loving children... but now i have my own lines of thinking i want to choose where i want to be... but i am afraid of ending up beheading far to my parents... i was covered with my fears... i got confused between two big choices... i cannot tell my Christian friend of this... and that it is one of the reasons i stopped attending our Bible studies... i have let people to control my mind... my decisions.... i was not able to let God completely have me as His servant... i was hesitating to decide for myself... and this is the battle for me i guess...
i don't know...i wasn't able to decide right there and then... my parents never knew that was a Christian Bible study i was attending... i was telling them before that i was to attend a certain school meeting or any other school matters just to be able to get to the BS in time... but there came a time when i realized... "Bible study yung inaatendan ko pero bago ako pumunta dun at pagkagaling ko dun nagsisinungaling naman ako sa magulang ko..." (i was attending the Bible study before but then there came a time when i realized i was attending the BS but i was lying
to my parents just before and after I've been there...) "naghu-hugas kamay ba 'ko?"... (am i cleansing off my own dirt?..) i was fooling myself... i became Christian in weeks by faith but eventually partly by name... no difference with when i was still a Catholic...
that just made me be praying regularly at night... before meals... and Reading the Bible... i have read up to Exodus and Leviticus in the Old testament and Matthew and John and some Corinthians in the New Testament... and that is the time when i got the verse of my life...
1 Corinthians 10:13
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it..."
('Wala pang pagsubok na dumating sa inyo na hindi dinanas ng lahat ng tao. Tapat ang Diyos at hindi niya ipahihintulot na kayo'y subukin ng higit sa inyong makakaya. Sa halip, pagdating ng pag subok ay bibigyan Niya kayo ng lakas upang mapagtagumpayan iyon...")
i hope i will be able to overcome this obstacle that have seized me... i know God is with me... I'll let Him lead my way and i will do no wrong... yes, i make lots of sins... being tempted... and becoming 'human'...
but then it is written... Matthew 21:22 "If you believe you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer..." i was once travelling the right road... i just took the long one and not went straight to the short cut... went into the darker road but was never lost... still He helped me with His hand and put me up when i was falling down....
beseech, be headed, be found...
"I'd rather choose to travel with You on Darkness than to walk Alone in a Lighted path..."
foot prints in the sand...
.,these words i have saved into my mind... after about four or six months time (i think...) i am able to go back at the catholic church just this afternoon for an Ash Wednesday Mass... the one i used to be at regularly every Sundays with my parents for seventeen(17) years or so...
my parents was raised in a pure blooded catholic family and are very loyal to the church ever since... they respect other religions who believes in the same God as ours but they are not open for influences, or other ideas coming from different religions...
i can say that i have grown and was raised as a God-fearing individual by my parents but was not exposed to other different sects of religions Christianity have... i actually pray only occasionally not every night when i was a child... yes, i was a catholic by name... i was made to believe that there is but one God but i was not aware that there are other religions, so many of them who proclaims the names of their own great Gods...
i was curious about how My God looks like when i was a child... i remember i was so afraid of looking at those statue 'saints' at the top of the altar... their eyes were fiery... i was like a coward soldier fighting in a battle running back to retreat when my eyes accidentally sees those wood carvings which are even larger than a life-size statue at times... and i have no idea those were just interpretations of the wide-scoped human imagination... it even reached a time when i was on high school i have thought of being a priest... although i have not got even a simple experience on serving the church... all i know is that i have already memorized what priests says when the mass is now at the part for the Holy Communion... to take the bread (which represents His body)and the wine (as His blood...) and at the part when we sing Our Father with a tune... holding hands and then letting go.... i wonder how my life would be like if i am (supposedly) studying in a seminary... i guess i would be better... and be talking of Bible Verses all the time...
I started reading the Bible when i was on third year... through the influence of a one good friend who is a Christian...
i just finished Genesis until i reached my college exploration... i met a group of Christian friends on which i was able to hear other sides of the 'Writings' clearly and more vividly... that was the time when i was made to believe that there really is a God... i think some people wouldn't believe it that i have made one of the biggest mistake others couldn't ever think of... that i have doubted that there really is a powerful and a very loving God living within every peoples lives... until i was proved to be wrong...
my eyes were opened to see the absence and/ or the deficits of my childhood religion... to cut the story short, i was previously introduced by my fellow classmates/friends to a God-loving student org... i was actively participating before until i laid low... one of my Christian friend organized a cell group who meets regularly for film showings, Bible learning's and the likes which is composed of students who wants to open their eyes to the knowledge the Lord wants them or us to gain or have.... we have made it travelling smoothly... from many... to four... to three... and then two plus Her... plus the Guy up watching us...
new semester... i was thinking of being converted as a Christian... a Born again Christian... i just thought that by doing so can mean a closer relationship with God because of their teachings and praising... and secondary... or maybe third follows- my passion for singing... (the worshiping part)...
I have attended my Christian Friend's Church... with another 'friend'... i can say that that was an "A" for effort cause we woke up early and travelled far just to attend church and hear the words of God...
not until i realized things.... things which bothered me... my mom doesn't want any members of our family to change our religion... "We were brought up as Catholics and we must stay the way we are...", that's her reason... and she wont agree with my reason that i am just getting or rather wanting a deeper relationship with the Lord and not changing my faith in Him... maybe she's just thinking i won't go with her and papa in the Catholic church when that thing happens...(when i get converted...)
my point is that, i have not chosen to be a catholic myself... that's what i was taught when i was growing... a part of their good upbringing for their loving children... but now i have my own lines of thinking i want to choose where i want to be... but i am afraid of ending up beheading far to my parents... i was covered with my fears... i got confused between two big choices... i cannot tell my Christian friend of this... and that it is one of the reasons i stopped attending our Bible studies... i have let people to control my mind... my decisions.... i was not able to let God completely have me as His servant... i was hesitating to decide for myself... and this is the battle for me i guess...
i don't know...i wasn't able to decide right there and then... my parents never knew that was a Christian Bible study i was attending... i was telling them before that i was to attend a certain school meeting or any other school matters just to be able to get to the BS in time... but there came a time when i realized... "Bible study yung inaatendan ko pero bago ako pumunta dun at pagkagaling ko dun nagsisinungaling naman ako sa magulang ko..." (i was attending the Bible study before but then there came a time when i realized i was attending the BS but i was lying
to my parents just before and after I've been there...) "naghu-hugas kamay ba 'ko?"... (am i cleansing off my own dirt?..) i was fooling myself... i became Christian in weeks by faith but eventually partly by name... no difference with when i was still a Catholic...
that just made me be praying regularly at night... before meals... and Reading the Bible... i have read up to Exodus and Leviticus in the Old testament and Matthew and John and some Corinthians in the New Testament... and that is the time when i got the verse of my life...
1 Corinthians 10:13
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it..."
('Wala pang pagsubok na dumating sa inyo na hindi dinanas ng lahat ng tao. Tapat ang Diyos at hindi niya ipahihintulot na kayo'y subukin ng higit sa inyong makakaya. Sa halip, pagdating ng pag subok ay bibigyan Niya kayo ng lakas upang mapagtagumpayan iyon...")
i hope i will be able to overcome this obstacle that have seized me... i know God is with me... I'll let Him lead my way and i will do no wrong... yes, i make lots of sins... being tempted... and becoming 'human'...
but then it is written... Matthew 21:22 "If you believe you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer..." i was once travelling the right road... i just took the long one and not went straight to the short cut... went into the darker road but was never lost... still He helped me with His hand and put me up when i was falling down....
beseech, be headed, be found...
"I'd rather choose to travel with You on Darkness than to walk Alone in a Lighted path..."
foot prints in the sand...
Monday, February 23, 2009
.,have i gotten into it too much?...
.,Horoscopes...- astrological forecast: an astrologer's description of the personality and future of a person based on the position of the planets in relation to the sign of the zodiac under which the person was born...
(Microsoft® Encarta® 2008. © 1993-2007 Microsoft Corporation. All rights reserved.)
Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21)
The Bottom Line
Try to connect with people instead of avoiding them. You need to get more social.
In Detail
You might not have realized it, but you have been pulling back from the people around you for a while now. Today, you need to try to connect instead of avoid if you want to maintain some important relationships. You relate well to other people when you put yourself in the role of listener -- so you should get yourself involved in group events and conversations. When you hear something that sparks your emotions, pipe up. Add your two cents and everyone will win.
-i am not that interested on horoscope topics... i read it sometimes only on newspaper columns...
i don't know what had pushed me to view my horoscope on friendster... maybe just out of my curiosity... well,i know it won't cost any trouble to me...
i first thought of reading just the bottom line but i felt it is some kind of incomplete if i would not read all the words in detail...
let me talk about the bottom line first... so this is the main point... and the first line made a strike on me... "hey how'd you know my situation?... you really nailed it..." this i have just said to myself... i think everyone in the class knows what's happening within the block... i have not gotten so much with some of my so-called 'friends'... i don't know if the problem is on me or if it's into them... we always say this, "thank God we're in a Democratic country." and now i am saying it...
i can't be just like a numb something when i know to myself and that there really is an array of incongruity happening within the group... i have been sited for a while now.... and now i am standing up... (I'll sit again when i get tired...:)
i think the problem is within both parties but i think the greatest deceitfulness is merely from the individuals who made separate ways themselves... "change is one of the most constant thing in the perspective of becoming a human being." but i don't really get it... are they blinded by the glittering light they see right now?... or are they really just patsies?... a victim of some worldly cravings on which one can't get enough of that they even managed to have them by using other people or rather allowing some individuals to use them... if i am to recall, these individuals i am pertaining to are one of the 'unimpaired' ones who were (if i am correct) against the attitude of the persons they are with right now... i don't know how easily did they forget the words of rebuff they have said in the past...
"you have been pulling back from the people around you for a while now. Today, you need to try to connect instead of avoid if you want to maintain some important relationships."
these are the lines which caught me in one way or another...
if i need to slap those words on their faces just to show to them how much they have changed since then...i will be willing to do that... with all my mighty heart...
it's hard to face the problem if the problem is your face....(no just kidding...) it is if the problem is within you... coz' it is about a hundred less .01 percent difficult to see it and face it...
for an instance, will you know that microorganisms are becoming parasitos when they are within your body?... of course you wont... coz you don't see it... unless you use some microscopes or tiny lenses of magnifiers for viewing it...
but that's now a different kettle of fish... back to the topic...
never on my wildest and most unfathomable dreams did i ever imagine these things will happen... and what's more conspicuous is that the individuals who was touched by the epidemic are those whom you have thought on the first place as persons with their own lines of thinking, an influx of the ability to think and learn... with a proper mind i guess... but now they are making wrong impressions out of themselves...
who, on the first place would love to be with a 'becoming totally parasite person'?... i guess none... unless they are parasitos too... if you are a sensible human being, i guess you have the ability to think of what is right and what are those we can consider incorrect... to distinguish between the old you and the one you are on the present... i am saying these words just because of my concern...
i want you guys , your stomachs to heave and expel in your very front the words you all have said against the individuals you now consider as 'lawful friends'...
to realize how much you all have changed... from the way you talk, the way your eyes meet 'our' friends eyes... how on every mounting situation you feel the lack of or the need for people whom in reality you have been with but then they apparently disappeared...
don't mock me with your faces... nor fake each and every smile you give every time we are having chances to be together... i am not bitter, hostile, nor being cold... i just want you to realize and see how much each part of you have changed... drastically... i am not wanting you to be back... but at least now i tried...
"All the world's a stage... and we're the writers of our own actions..."
-angelo...:(
p.s.
i miss my 'old friends'... the ones i have known...
but change is constant...
i don't know if i can still follow...
(Microsoft® Encarta® 2008. © 1993-2007 Microsoft Corporation. All rights reserved.)
Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21)
The Bottom Line
Try to connect with people instead of avoiding them. You need to get more social.
In Detail
You might not have realized it, but you have been pulling back from the people around you for a while now. Today, you need to try to connect instead of avoid if you want to maintain some important relationships. You relate well to other people when you put yourself in the role of listener -- so you should get yourself involved in group events and conversations. When you hear something that sparks your emotions, pipe up. Add your two cents and everyone will win.
-i am not that interested on horoscope topics... i read it sometimes only on newspaper columns...
i don't know what had pushed me to view my horoscope on friendster... maybe just out of my curiosity... well,i know it won't cost any trouble to me...
i first thought of reading just the bottom line but i felt it is some kind of incomplete if i would not read all the words in detail...
let me talk about the bottom line first... so this is the main point... and the first line made a strike on me... "hey how'd you know my situation?... you really nailed it..." this i have just said to myself... i think everyone in the class knows what's happening within the block... i have not gotten so much with some of my so-called 'friends'... i don't know if the problem is on me or if it's into them... we always say this, "thank God we're in a Democratic country." and now i am saying it...
i can't be just like a numb something when i know to myself and that there really is an array of incongruity happening within the group... i have been sited for a while now.... and now i am standing up... (I'll sit again when i get tired...:)
i think the problem is within both parties but i think the greatest deceitfulness is merely from the individuals who made separate ways themselves... "change is one of the most constant thing in the perspective of becoming a human being." but i don't really get it... are they blinded by the glittering light they see right now?... or are they really just patsies?... a victim of some worldly cravings on which one can't get enough of that they even managed to have them by using other people or rather allowing some individuals to use them... if i am to recall, these individuals i am pertaining to are one of the 'unimpaired' ones who were (if i am correct) against the attitude of the persons they are with right now... i don't know how easily did they forget the words of rebuff they have said in the past...
"you have been pulling back from the people around you for a while now. Today, you need to try to connect instead of avoid if you want to maintain some important relationships."
these are the lines which caught me in one way or another...
if i need to slap those words on their faces just to show to them how much they have changed since then...i will be willing to do that... with all my mighty heart...
it's hard to face the problem if the problem is your face....(no just kidding...) it is if the problem is within you... coz' it is about a hundred less .01 percent difficult to see it and face it...
for an instance, will you know that microorganisms are becoming parasitos when they are within your body?... of course you wont... coz you don't see it... unless you use some microscopes or tiny lenses of magnifiers for viewing it...
but that's now a different kettle of fish... back to the topic...
never on my wildest and most unfathomable dreams did i ever imagine these things will happen... and what's more conspicuous is that the individuals who was touched by the epidemic are those whom you have thought on the first place as persons with their own lines of thinking, an influx of the ability to think and learn... with a proper mind i guess... but now they are making wrong impressions out of themselves...
who, on the first place would love to be with a 'becoming totally parasite person'?... i guess none... unless they are parasitos too... if you are a sensible human being, i guess you have the ability to think of what is right and what are those we can consider incorrect... to distinguish between the old you and the one you are on the present... i am saying these words just because of my concern...
i want you guys , your stomachs to heave and expel in your very front the words you all have said against the individuals you now consider as 'lawful friends'...
to realize how much you all have changed... from the way you talk, the way your eyes meet 'our' friends eyes... how on every mounting situation you feel the lack of or the need for people whom in reality you have been with but then they apparently disappeared...
don't mock me with your faces... nor fake each and every smile you give every time we are having chances to be together... i am not bitter, hostile, nor being cold... i just want you to realize and see how much each part of you have changed... drastically... i am not wanting you to be back... but at least now i tried...
"All the world's a stage... and we're the writers of our own actions..."
-angelo...:(
p.s.
i miss my 'old friends'... the ones i have known...
but change is constant...
i don't know if i can still follow...
Monday, February 16, 2009
.,into my distress...
.,okay we have had our 'practical exam/ moving exam' on microbio after the flag ceremony... and as usual... the activity followed an alphabetical order arrangement on whom shall get inside the room first... i have never been used to it even if i am always put at first... i wish i can change my surname... haizzz... i've never felt anything like that before... i was like uhm so edgy i don't know why... that was the first time i felt so really anxious about that kind of exam... and yet, the results show... i skipped some questions and was so uneasy to find the answers... its like my brain is all piled up... a pure bold blank appeared... argh... that was fifteen items all in all... and we were given a minute to take a look at the microscope and answer the questions taped on the table... sometimes three questions... some two at a time... then the bell rings... 'ting.... ting.... ting...' the sound still haunts my brain...
.....answering question number one... a.)...., b.)....., c.)...... (blank, blank, blank.... thinking... digging... nothing...) the bell rings.... 'ting... ting...' answers flashed...when I was on question number two... "was that bacillus anthracis?... a gram positive bacteria?..." aaaahhhh... wasting time...
that was some kinda' traumatic... the sound of that tiny little bell was retained into my mind... hahaha....
-----------------------no second subject (brain rest... but still thinking)---------------------
10:30- third and last subject... boring.... but that's a major one...
"okay class ngayon ako yung magdi- discuss..." we get our hand outs... talk... talk.... talk.....
i do not really understand anything....
time passed... recitation... "what's the difference between 'this' and 'that'... how can you explain this... ano pa?... give us an example.... elaborate...." these are the words we always hear from her.... i heard something like it is 'a part of the teaching strategy'.... or to find out if her students 'learns something from her'... i don't know...
more talk.... talk.... talk... and much talk....
discussion.... OVER.....
"okay quiz... put down all your things.... hindi na 'ko magpapalabas...(that is doing the exam by batch...) every body was terrified... shocked.... and alarmed... no one listened to that discussion i guess... including myself... no exemptions... we know there would probably be enumeration... 'walang ganun sa board... anu toh?...' (is there an enumeration type of exam on the Nursing Licensure Examination?... i just wonder...) 'this isn't fair...'- i have just said to myself...
"there are announced quizzes... and there are surprise ones... and i do not really like the latter... got no preparations... have not listened to the senseless discussion and most of all, the type of exam was some kinda' silly... lols....
my classmates says that it was a revenge for she got low grades on the recently concluded teacher's performance evaluation... which is certainly and exactly true... i think she doesn't deserve those very very low grades but i guess the other students are just bias and unfair on giving the lowest grades on all fields and aspect of teaching at the evaluation form... some other students gave foul opinions regarding the professor's persona... which were quite offensive to her part...
but the point is, both sides have had their own slip-ups... and neither one of them wants to accept the fact that they have made their own faults which have caused the big misunderstanding.... there are times when the old aged people won't really accept the fact that they have done a wrong stuff.... and the young ones are making fun of them cause they seem to not comprehend to the empathy of the other...
give way.... take time.... cross roads....
.....answering question number one... a.)...., b.)....., c.)...... (blank, blank, blank.... thinking... digging... nothing...) the bell rings.... 'ting... ting...' answers flashed...when I was on question number two... "was that bacillus anthracis?... a gram positive bacteria?..." aaaahhhh... wasting time...
that was some kinda' traumatic... the sound of that tiny little bell was retained into my mind... hahaha....
-----------------------no second subject (brain rest... but still thinking)---------------------
10:30- third and last subject... boring.... but that's a major one...
"okay class ngayon ako yung magdi- discuss..." we get our hand outs... talk... talk.... talk.....
i do not really understand anything....
time passed... recitation... "what's the difference between 'this' and 'that'... how can you explain this... ano pa?... give us an example.... elaborate...." these are the words we always hear from her.... i heard something like it is 'a part of the teaching strategy'.... or to find out if her students 'learns something from her'... i don't know...
more talk.... talk.... talk... and much talk....
discussion.... OVER.....
"okay quiz... put down all your things.... hindi na 'ko magpapalabas...(that is doing the exam by batch...) every body was terrified... shocked.... and alarmed... no one listened to that discussion i guess... including myself... no exemptions... we know there would probably be enumeration... 'walang ganun sa board... anu toh?...' (is there an enumeration type of exam on the Nursing Licensure Examination?... i just wonder...) 'this isn't fair...'- i have just said to myself...
"there are announced quizzes... and there are surprise ones... and i do not really like the latter... got no preparations... have not listened to the senseless discussion and most of all, the type of exam was some kinda' silly... lols....
my classmates says that it was a revenge for she got low grades on the recently concluded teacher's performance evaluation... which is certainly and exactly true... i think she doesn't deserve those very very low grades but i guess the other students are just bias and unfair on giving the lowest grades on all fields and aspect of teaching at the evaluation form... some other students gave foul opinions regarding the professor's persona... which were quite offensive to her part...
but the point is, both sides have had their own slip-ups... and neither one of them wants to accept the fact that they have made their own faults which have caused the big misunderstanding.... there are times when the old aged people won't really accept the fact that they have done a wrong stuff.... and the young ones are making fun of them cause they seem to not comprehend to the empathy of the other...
give way.... take time.... cross roads....
Friday, February 6, 2009
.,blind sided(posted on 'friendster bulletin'...)
.,i am really disappointed... this is one of the worst decision you've ever made... that was a sh*t!... i really felt like i was blind sided... is this what friendship really means to someone whom you treasure the most?....
whatever your reason is... i don't have an open mind to accept it or even listen to those... yes, call me self-centered... selfish... or whatever 'self' it is...
i feel so hot right now... a flaming volcano... molten hot magma... aaaarrrgggghhhh!!!...
give me time...
let me cool myself down... sigh!..
whhhhhooosssshhhh....
whatever your reason is... i don't have an open mind to accept it or even listen to those... yes, call me self-centered... selfish... or whatever 'self' it is...
i feel so hot right now... a flaming volcano... molten hot magma... aaaarrrgggghhhh!!!...
give me time...
let me cool myself down... sigh!..
whhhhhooosssshhhh....
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
.,napakawalangkwentapalaniya...
.,isang umaga... ganap na ika-siyam ng mga oras na iyon... ikalawang aralin kaninang umaga...(buti na lang demokratik kawntri tayo...:)
hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit may mga taong hindi marunong tumanggap ng pagkakamali... mga taong wala ni kaunting konsiderasyon na nalalabi para sa iba... isang munting kahilingan lamang... mahirap ba talagang magparaya?... o magpaubaya?... napakawalangkwenta naman ng mga bagay na tinatalakay ukol doon... ngunit akala mo ay sobrang halaga para sa isang propesyon na puro lamang siyensya ang pinag aaralan... maisasabuhay ko kaya ito sa hinaharap kung sakaling magtagumpay ako sa tinatahak kong daan ngayon?... hindi lamang sa iisang bagay umiikot ang mundo... naglalakbay ito sa paligid ng iba pang planeta... sa araw, at nagiikutan rin sila ng buwan... hindi ko maintindihan kung maramot ba siya oh sadyang wala lang siyang pakialam para sa nararamdaman ng ibang tao...
akala mo ay kung sino kung umasta... ayokong magmukhang bastos sa harap ng maraming tao kaya hindi ako sumasagot ng harapan... pagtira ba ito ng nakatalikod?... siguro... pero hindi rin ganoon... buti na lang lahat may kalayaan sa pamamahayag... batid ko na hindi talaga ganoon kadali ibigay ang pagtitiwala para sa ibang tao... ngunit ang sobrang panghuhusga ay maaari ring magdulot sa isang tao ng hindi kanais nais na pagtingin mula sa iba pa...
hindi talaga ako natutuwa sa mga bagay na nangyayari sa aking magulong paligid... lalo na sa araling iyon.. hindi ko ito nais pagtuunan ng higit na pansin ngunit kung susuriin ng masinsinan mababatid ng sinuman na hindi talaga ganoong kasaya sa piling nya... sabi nga ng iba... mas kanais nais ang ugali ng kabiyak niya...
isasama ba iyon sa papeles kung hindi siya ganoon kahalaga?... oo nga... ngunit ang punto... ay mayroong mga bagay na mas mahalaga pa sa bagay na ipinapahayag niya... talagang napakawalangkwenta... oo aaminin ko hindi ganoon kaayos ang lagay ko sa nasasabing usaping ito, ngunit ito ay dahil sa kawalang ganahan ko sa mga bagay na hindi mo kapapakiramdaman ng anumang importansiya...
naniniwala ako na ang paggalang ay makukuha mo kapalit rin ng pagbibigay ng paggalang sa ibang tao.... ngunit may mga nilalang na hindi mo maiiwasang mag mataas sapagkat matayog itong nakatayo ngayon sa tuktok... sa rurok... sa kaitaasan.... sabi nga sa isang litanyang kinatha ko kasama ng isang kamag- aral... "yumaman ka man, mamamatay ka pa rin..." pare-pareho lang tayo ng maaaring kahantungan... ngunit ngayon habang nakatapak pa sa lupa ang ating mga paa... hindi natin maaaring pigilan ang pagkakaroon ng pakpak ng iba... lumilipad sa himpapawid ang pakiramdam ng mga taong akala mo ay nagtataglay ng lahat ng pinaka magagandang bagay sa mundo... kung pakasusuriin at ihahambing sa mga kaantasan niyang nilalang, hindi niya makakayanang pumantay sa mga ito... oo nakababa pa siya... hindi ako ganoon kagaling at alam kong wala ako sa posisyon para husgahan ang katauhan niya... ngunit ito ang siyang aking nakikita... napapansin... at nararamdaman... hiling ko lang na sana.. sana lang... sa mga susunod na panahon ay maintindihan rin ng mga nakatataas na lahat ng nilalang ay nagkakamali rin... na hindi dahil sa nasa itaas ka ay hindi ka na bababa kailanman... sana...sa mga darating na panahon mabago rin ang ihip ng hangin... bumaligtad ang ikot ng mundo... sikatan rin ng araw ang madilim niyang himpapawid... at mabawasan ng gaspang ang nakasusugat niyang mga parating...
gayunpaman, "hindi ko hahayaang tuluyang anurin ako ng dagat... sasagwan ako hanggat kaya... lalangoy hanggat may lakas... tutuloy kahit hapong-hapo na..." balang araw makakaintindi rin ako sa karamihan ng mga bagay-bagay na naganap at patuloy na nagaganap ngayon... hindi titigil ang mundo para sa akin... at hindi ko rin ito kayang patulinin... ngunit kaya ko itong lakbayin ngayong kasalukuyan... sapagkat alam ko kung hanggang saan ang aking makakaya... hindi ko ipagpipilitan ang mga bagay na kagaya ng kaniyang mga ginagawa at ipinapakita...
sa huli, hindi pa rin ako oh siya ang magpapasya... wala ni isa ang marapat na magdikta... maliban na lamang sa Kanya... oo... Siya nga... Siya lang at wala nang iba...
ikaw?... nakaengkwentro ka na ba ng walangkwenta?...^.^
hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit may mga taong hindi marunong tumanggap ng pagkakamali... mga taong wala ni kaunting konsiderasyon na nalalabi para sa iba... isang munting kahilingan lamang... mahirap ba talagang magparaya?... o magpaubaya?... napakawalangkwenta naman ng mga bagay na tinatalakay ukol doon... ngunit akala mo ay sobrang halaga para sa isang propesyon na puro lamang siyensya ang pinag aaralan... maisasabuhay ko kaya ito sa hinaharap kung sakaling magtagumpay ako sa tinatahak kong daan ngayon?... hindi lamang sa iisang bagay umiikot ang mundo... naglalakbay ito sa paligid ng iba pang planeta... sa araw, at nagiikutan rin sila ng buwan... hindi ko maintindihan kung maramot ba siya oh sadyang wala lang siyang pakialam para sa nararamdaman ng ibang tao...
akala mo ay kung sino kung umasta... ayokong magmukhang bastos sa harap ng maraming tao kaya hindi ako sumasagot ng harapan... pagtira ba ito ng nakatalikod?... siguro... pero hindi rin ganoon... buti na lang lahat may kalayaan sa pamamahayag... batid ko na hindi talaga ganoon kadali ibigay ang pagtitiwala para sa ibang tao... ngunit ang sobrang panghuhusga ay maaari ring magdulot sa isang tao ng hindi kanais nais na pagtingin mula sa iba pa...
hindi talaga ako natutuwa sa mga bagay na nangyayari sa aking magulong paligid... lalo na sa araling iyon.. hindi ko ito nais pagtuunan ng higit na pansin ngunit kung susuriin ng masinsinan mababatid ng sinuman na hindi talaga ganoong kasaya sa piling nya... sabi nga ng iba... mas kanais nais ang ugali ng kabiyak niya...
isasama ba iyon sa papeles kung hindi siya ganoon kahalaga?... oo nga... ngunit ang punto... ay mayroong mga bagay na mas mahalaga pa sa bagay na ipinapahayag niya... talagang napakawalangkwenta... oo aaminin ko hindi ganoon kaayos ang lagay ko sa nasasabing usaping ito, ngunit ito ay dahil sa kawalang ganahan ko sa mga bagay na hindi mo kapapakiramdaman ng anumang importansiya...
naniniwala ako na ang paggalang ay makukuha mo kapalit rin ng pagbibigay ng paggalang sa ibang tao.... ngunit may mga nilalang na hindi mo maiiwasang mag mataas sapagkat matayog itong nakatayo ngayon sa tuktok... sa rurok... sa kaitaasan.... sabi nga sa isang litanyang kinatha ko kasama ng isang kamag- aral... "yumaman ka man, mamamatay ka pa rin..." pare-pareho lang tayo ng maaaring kahantungan... ngunit ngayon habang nakatapak pa sa lupa ang ating mga paa... hindi natin maaaring pigilan ang pagkakaroon ng pakpak ng iba... lumilipad sa himpapawid ang pakiramdam ng mga taong akala mo ay nagtataglay ng lahat ng pinaka magagandang bagay sa mundo... kung pakasusuriin at ihahambing sa mga kaantasan niyang nilalang, hindi niya makakayanang pumantay sa mga ito... oo nakababa pa siya... hindi ako ganoon kagaling at alam kong wala ako sa posisyon para husgahan ang katauhan niya... ngunit ito ang siyang aking nakikita... napapansin... at nararamdaman... hiling ko lang na sana.. sana lang... sa mga susunod na panahon ay maintindihan rin ng mga nakatataas na lahat ng nilalang ay nagkakamali rin... na hindi dahil sa nasa itaas ka ay hindi ka na bababa kailanman... sana...sa mga darating na panahon mabago rin ang ihip ng hangin... bumaligtad ang ikot ng mundo... sikatan rin ng araw ang madilim niyang himpapawid... at mabawasan ng gaspang ang nakasusugat niyang mga parating...
gayunpaman, "hindi ko hahayaang tuluyang anurin ako ng dagat... sasagwan ako hanggat kaya... lalangoy hanggat may lakas... tutuloy kahit hapong-hapo na..." balang araw makakaintindi rin ako sa karamihan ng mga bagay-bagay na naganap at patuloy na nagaganap ngayon... hindi titigil ang mundo para sa akin... at hindi ko rin ito kayang patulinin... ngunit kaya ko itong lakbayin ngayong kasalukuyan... sapagkat alam ko kung hanggang saan ang aking makakaya... hindi ko ipagpipilitan ang mga bagay na kagaya ng kaniyang mga ginagawa at ipinapakita...
sa huli, hindi pa rin ako oh siya ang magpapasya... wala ni isa ang marapat na magdikta... maliban na lamang sa Kanya... oo... Siya nga... Siya lang at wala nang iba...
ikaw?... nakaengkwentro ka na ba ng walangkwenta?...^.^
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