Love's to Blame (Lyrics)

Joel and Luke

Time in time I thought through it all

How we loved and loved

and how we fought each other

pushing one another to be somebody else.

And time in time I'm pressing my thoughts

uncertain if the end was right or wrong

 and whether we still should be together

or with somebody else.

A lost memory, 

She had water in her eyes

She cried stay with me...

asked how can this be love

if you are leaving me

but darling Love's to blame.

And i can't see you right now,

'cause my heart just can't take it...

can't be near you right now

cause i know you're no longer mine, 

I can't see you.

It makes me ache that we had to break

and even though I knew your heart so well 

we're strangers in different places 

though we're living mile apart.

My best friend's gone,

my world has been turned

We'll never share a name of her be wronged

But I will always remember

Years we've spent in Love.

I say I'll think of you 

I pray that you were safe

and say I'm missing you

but has to be this way cause I'm not right for you

and that's why Love's to blame..

And i can't see you right now,

'cause my heart just can't take it...

can't be near you right now

cause i know you're no longer mine, 

I can't see you.

And i can't see you right now,

'cause my heart just can't fake it...

can't be near you right now

cause i know you're no longer mine, 

I can't see you.

And I can't see you,

No i can't see you,

I just can't see you...

 Right now...

But may be time will heal our hearts, 

and may be after time you'll understand

I take the darker side of me.

And i can't see you right now

'cause my heart just can't take it.

Can't be near you right now..

cause i know you're no longer mine.

And I can't see you right now,

'cause my heart just can't take it.

Can't be near you right now

cause i know you're no longer mine...

And I can't see you

No i can't see you

I just can't see you.. Right now...

No i can't see you...

I just can't see you...

I just can't see you.. Right now...

and Love's to Blame...

I have discovered this song myself when I was watching a very popular movie at YouTube during my late high school years (I got tired of reading the subs, for the movie was a Thai Romantic Drama though it was very good) and it hit me like a throbbing needle. I tried to find then the lyrics of this heart-hitting song but to my surprise, what appeared were merely versions of some Steve Earle and none was written for this version of two great brothers.

For my convenience and also for other deathly Love song fanatics who wants to sing along; I tried to listen to the song over and over as I wrote down the words based on how exactly I heard them (so please bear with my eardrum).

Enjoy and play great music with me! :)

P.S.

-Heyp'pi Birthday to Somebody I know; who doesn't know even a single piece about me, or even feel my sole existence and see my meekest presence, my admiration- respect and reverence to You. Heyp'pi Birthday! :)

Revive, Resuscitate, and Recover...

There are almost a gazillion ideas and sexvigintillion thoughts running through my disbursed head. My frontal lobe can't actually process all the information and data at once, not now... not yet.

Who would have thought that I will be paying my debts as early as now with regards to the rewards or shall I say punishment I, myself am giving to my lean and gaunt physical body. I felt sick for the past few days (again), and take a note of it, that exactly was during my officially-out-of-the-teens-birth day. I didn't knew it would be this quick that I get to have the loose change. Months ago, during the second-half of the year, I felt like I was over my greatest capacity to bear or handle physical and psychological situations. I must have met my crisis with the unknown situations for I take stress as a hobby, its as if it was my favorite among life's delicacies.

I wanted to have a break now, a break from the cruel situations life is offering me or that's the way I see it now. I assumed so much responsibility, I guess more than I could have handled-possibly out of the lines. I am done with the old lifestyle once I get myself back on track- this is not a promise, its an order, an aim, a goal:  not a thing that I 'have' to do for my own self but rather one which I 'need to do/shall be doing' by now. I have made some pieces of my heart be shattered along the paths I take and in a place where it is quite hard to pick it all up again. Its gone in an instant. I am taking all of my time to breathe deeply, and as I take each oxygenation process, I frequently try to ask Someone 'why', but I never get to have new answers, for I throw the questions back to myself thereafter. 

We get to meet new people through each path we take but no one stays permanently (are you 'no one'?), some leaves and never returns, some stays for a while and then escapes the situation as soon as they get what they want and it throbs. I have never felt a single emotion with each particular moment of experience. It always do come in pairs, a package. For the nth time, I have had my consultation with a family physician and people frequently asks me about how well did the result go, I utter no words in response to their query for I believe it would be healthier if I consciously get to use silence and oftentimes suppression as a defense mechanism. Life is a game we play and its a little difficult to play fair. Thanks but no thanks for the unsolicited concerns.

I mention words which frequently hit my veins and in an instant, it pricks deep all the way through. I shall do the reviving on my own, and I need to revitalize I know. Along the process of changing, I shall resuscitate my breath... and in the counts for life I shall continue; wisdom is taking the place of the long before hidden part of my being. I am living yet slowly dying. I live to live and not to get lost- Easily.

-Photo taken from my old cp camera-

They say that the stars is nowhere to be found in the morning but they get to rise and shine brightly at night. The moon may be covered by the dark gray clouds but it still glows a ton of white light. We may be living life in the midst of struggles but what is good about the creatures here on earth is that they are capable of adapting with what is happening in the environment. 

Recover. After all these, I am wishing forth to regain what I have lost, to get something back on my sole possession, to get things well and then be better, amend for good.

Tears do glitter...

.,Its been a long while and I have not planned that I will have my come back this way...

I don't really get it when people say I've changed... a lot!... I guess I naively still don't know me.

It has been more than a month, and I always come to this point in time when I restart to realize that time is really just meant to fly. My best bud has arrived last 1st of February and now she's left... a bittersweet goodbye for me again I guess. I am not as hard as a rock or as stiff as a rod, nor as pliant as a bamboo but I know I have emotions inside of me and they just recur whenever I need them.

I think I have not extracted the best out of it... Regrets, why do they always get in our way the last? I don't know... I don't really know. Now, I feel the missing part of it and I don't know how I can adjust to this new, sad, and quiet environment again in my room. I feel it, yes I am alone. Again. I will be leaving this box today and it will be alright outside... but I don't know what awaits me when I get back.

No one will bother me when I am studying, no one will hit me with a pillow as i sleep soundly, no one will ask me sweet little favors about computer shortcuts and how to's... No one will stay with me awake till the next morning, no one will join me as I eat alone at the dinner table, no one will ask me to accompany her with her whereabouts. I am crying. I can't help but cry. I was so insensitive then that I have not paid attention on those simple happy moments. I should have made no regrets.

I know she' leaving because of me and I don't know if she feels its just fair for her to do these things for me. I can just talk to nobody about how I feel now. I hardly utter words.

Addio mi ammica. Arrivederci! Buon viaggio! A presto!

Beginning dump of physical memory...

"The 'only' fair thing in our world is its unfairness... and its uncertainties are the 'only ones' which we can be ascertain of..."

I don't really know what's wrong with my pc... it always says this line for about every 15 or 20 minutes and heck i have to restart my computer over again... i am getting sick of it and i don't know what to do... i have searched for remedies and possible solutions on the net and have tried doing some of the suggestions, thanks but no thanks cause none of them are functional...

i have opened a tab and searched for one, and another and another... argggghhhh.... i am getting over of this... i'll just bring this on the shop later... I know I am still a computer retarded in one way or another... I tried to find solutions myself thinking that I might not need to waste my time on dealing with the unpleasing personalities of those men in the repair shop... but duh, I still have a lot to 'learn more' about.

I have a broken pc, a broken cp, I am thinking of my grades whether i'd be able to pass as an academic scholar (but if not its still ok... at least I will be able to continue studying for the next sem. with fair- if not high grades...); I am thinking whether I can be able to transfer from one section to another this coming sem. (cause i am sick of the reading routine); I need to go to my Alma Mater to get a copy of my TOR (which I thought i have already submitted when I entered the University); I have not helped a friend in need which causes my heart to start cracking right now (oh gosh its financial! what can i do?); I have an Aunt in the hospital, Cancer- the prognosis; My Tita from Japan will be arriving this Sunday and heck my mom is cramming... Asking me to wash beautiful plates, prepare stuffs- like what to wear and what to bring, fixing a room for our guest- changing linens, cleaning the house- removing weeds which have sprouted all over the backyard (thanks for the rain), and a lot of other preparations to be done as if the Prime Minister of Japan is the one coming...

I have had a long busy week during the final examinations and I thought that i would be able to have a loooonnng rest now because its already our semestral break but nah, sorry for me... I am expecting to have the trip of my life next week... I and my Tita will be having the 'teen' bonding...
For the longest time, I will be able to live out of my box..

I need to go to school at 1pm, I am getting my class card from a 'very productive' subject matter, and I expect to have a well-deserved grade- but not as much expectations as my friends have for me...
I hope to meet one of my favorite C.I. today coz' i want to see my grades in her subject just to know how i was doing all those times... I know I perform well-enough. She's my last hope, the rope who can pull me up, out of the mud where I have sank... from the woman who have buried half of my body...

I just want things to be fine now... When can the world be fair?... I don't know, cause...


"The 'only' fair thing in our world is its unfairness... and its uncertainties are the 'only ones' which we can be ascertain of..."

Maligayang Kaarawan

"Parang kahapon lang nang isilang ako sa mundong ito, pero ngayon... heto, Cute pa rin ako! wala pa ring nagbabago..."


ilang panahon na rin ang lumipas, umulan na nang sobrang lakas sa mundong ginagalawan ko... sumobra na rin ang mga naranasan kong init... ilang beses na din akong lumusong sa baha at minsan, maranasang magtampisaw sa tubig na naipon nito...

Pagkakataon nga naman, ano bang meron sa petsang ito? sa dinami-rami ng araw sa kalendaryo... Mayroon namang tatlongdaan at animnapu't apat pang ibang panahon...

Una, ang paggunita sa ikaapa'tnapung araw na kamatayan ng aking Pangulo... Ang dami naman simbahan na pwedeng puntahan ni Kris, pero ang lakas talaga ni Bishop kay Itay... Personal daw niyang pinili ang Cathedral ng Balanga para doon niya gunitain ang kamatayan ng kanyang Ina sa Misang hinanda ng Parokya- sabi ni Kris... Ayun, ang mga Balangue ño nagkagulo... nakalimutan nang misa ang pinuntahan nila, Ai maalala ko lang, Oo nga pala, Alam nilang may public figure na pupunta, hindi lang basta artista- si Kris Aquino pa... picture, picture... autograph, ano pa?... Shake hands tsaka beso...:D Solve na!... may makakapagpasikat na rin sa mga kapitbahay, mga kaklase, tsaka yung iba pang pwedeng mainggit... bwahahaha... (If I know ganyan iniisip nila..)

Ako? Gutom ako eah... kumain na lang kami sa Chowking, halos tapat lang ng kanto papasok ng parking area ng simbahan... ang daming tao, nakakatamad makiusyoso... sayang! pagkakataon ko na sanang makita si Baby James...:D


Ikalawa, nagdeklara na ang unico hijo... tatakbo daw siya... sana nga iba siya sa lahat ng mga pulitiko, sana mapantayan nya nga yung nagawa ng mga magulang niya kung sakaling maluklok man siya... wag lang makuha ang ugali ng ibang mga napupuwesto, kung makakain sa resto milyon pa ang pinaluluto... Pakape ka na lang!... :D (Starbucks! Lol..)

-singit ko lang, ngunit wala namang masyadong importansiya ito doon sa talagang pakay ko... yung ibang pulitiko lang kasi kung magapaglabas ng 'infomercials' parang sobra lang sa pag smoke belching... "Yayaman tayo.", parang sarcastic baga... ang hirap talaga minsan magbuhat ng sariling pink 'stainless-steel' na bangko... oo masama ngang manghusga kaya lang minsan kasi parang sobra naman yung mga hangin na lumalabas sa katawan natin, ang baho!... Hindi naman kailangan lahat 'Bayani'... yung ibang simpleng tao naman may kaya ring gawin... matatalino ang mga Pilipino, alam ko kahit papaano madadala nila sa tamang daan ang kanilang mga boto... (nga pala, sa susunod pong halalan, huwag ninyo akong kalilimutan! hehehehe...:D)

Ikatlo, Birthday ng isang importanteng nilalang (na hindi ko alam kung bakit nalikha sa mundong ito...) ni hindi ko mawari kung paano oh bakit nagaganap ang mga bagay-bagay na wala ni isa man lang bang koneksiyon sa pagkakaayos ng mga bituin sa langit ngayon, oh sa paggalaw ng mga planeta sa 'axis' nito, kahit sa pagtatago ng buwan sa likod ng mga ulap, aaraw, uulan, tapos nalagyan pa ng glitters yung pantalon ko kanina... nakascarf pa naman ako... buti na lang kumain ako ng hapunan...

ha?... ang gulo ano? hindi ko rin alam kung bakit, pero yung tao kasi na ito masyadong ginugulo ang mundo ko... minsan naiisip ko, bumili kaya ako ng mighty bond (para mapagdikit ko na lang palagi yung mundo namin), kasi para siyang si superman (napakalakas ng dating)... ayaw ko lang sabihin oh tawagin siyang mcdo (Love ko 'to) bka sabihin obvious na masyado... :D korni nga daw ako, pero alam ko nangingiti naman siya kahit papaano kapag sinesendan ko siya ng quotes na korni, yung tipong,

"Kung nasa laboratory raw ako at kasama kita... Anong English nun?... uhmmm... eh di...

I'm in lab with you!... ayeee!"

tama na nga ang kalokohan...

Ikaapat, oo eto na talaga yun... sa mga pinaggagagawa ko ba naman dito sa lugar na ito, hindi ko akalaing tatagal ako ng ganito... Isang taon na pala ako dito... hindi ko man lang namalayan, ang bilis talaga ng panahon. Maraming tuldok na ang nagawa ko (eto, '....'), nakakairita ba? medyo'...' naniniwala lang kasi ako na ang bawat letra, ang bawat salita, ang bawat parirala, oh kahit isang buong talata, lahat ng ito ay maaaring laging may karugtong, posibleng ang tuldok, dagdagan pa ng dalawang tuldok, tapos ilang salita... hanggang sa mabuo ang isang bagong talata... (ang saya di'ba?) gusto ko lang gamitin ang pagkakataong ito upang pasalamatan ang lahat ng nilalang, pagkakataon, panahon at kung ano-ano pang mga bagay na nagtutulak sa akin upang ipagpatuloy ko ang aking makabuluhang pagsusulat. Kung hindi siguro dahil sa mga ito, wala akong malilikhang katha...

Nagsimula ako sa wala, nandyan si 'chique' (spexal mention!), na laging nag iiwan ng komento kahit walang kwenta ang ilan kong gawa (di naman lahat)... tayo lang kasi minsan nakakaintindi sa gawa ng isa't-isa (nakakarelate baga dung!). Tapos unti-unti nadagdagan kahit papaano yung mga napapadpad dito sa site ko... masaya na ko dun! sabi ko nga, okey lang naman kahit wala oh konti yung nagbabasa ng mga katha ko, ok lang kahit hindi din magcomment yung ibang napapadaan, ayos lang kung hindi maappreciate ng ibang tao yung mga naisusulat ko... Nagsusulat ako kasi eto yung gusto ko. Gusto kong ilabas kung ano yung nasasaloob ko... gusto kong kahit papaano mabawasan yung mga iniisip ko, maibsan yung mga kalungkutan, maibahagi yung mga kasiyahan, at simpleng matuto mula sa iba...

sabi nga ni Anne Frank,
"I can shake off everything if I write, my sorrows disappear, my courage is reborn."

at sabi ni Aya,

"If i don't write down the things in my heart right now, tomorrow... then i would forget it and disappear..."

gusto ko, tumagal pa ako sa pagsusulat ng isang taon tapos doblehin ng mga isang milyong beses... at dagdagan ng mga isang daang milyong beses na lang... ayos na sa akin iyon...

oh siya, may duty pa ko bukas... at naghahati na ang araw... lumampas na ako sa 09/09/09, Setyembre 10 na...

Maligayang Kaarawan sa akin, sa kanya, sa amin... :D pano ba yan, mukhang imposibleng makalimutan ko talaga ang date na ito... Ganoon yata talaga pag importante... hehehehe... mahirap kalimutan, mahirap maalis sa isipan... sluggish ako eah... mabagal! pahingi nga ng 'do'... dadagdagan ko lang yung t*rpe ko... (para medyo bumilis, kailangan 'torpedo')... :D

¡feliz cumpleaños!...

My Last Farewell...

In the loving memory of My Beloved President...

I yielded up seeing this poem composed by the late, former Senator Ninoy Aquino during the short days of his courageous life... I am a big fan of this couple... Honestly.

I have not yet witnessed such overwhelming love and support by the Filipinos to any other people who have contributed a lot in the country's democracy, except now!... I can say, President Corazon C. Aquino is "uniquely exceptional"... She have left us the greatest influence which any other individual can never (ever) give... At first, I thought that those who have waited for long hours outside the Manila Cathedral one or two days ago to be able to see President Aquino's remains already formed a great number of support and affection which is really incomparable but now, as I have witnessed Tita Cory's interment (which was started by a requiem mass), through the procession (the long roads of travel from Manila and to Makati and finally to Paranaque) and up to the last hours, minutes and seconds of the burial, at the Manila Memorial Park, the overflowing of support by hundreds and millions of people really made me express an undefiable amazement... "Wow!..." -the best word to define the feeling, i guess... The media coverage gave me a chance to witness this one of a kind and a once in a lifetime moment in our nation's vivacity. Tita Cory have really made a lot for our country... One of the best Filipina ever! It felt like as if I was being brought back to the year when the country's democracy was renewed. The people shouting in grief and tears flowing through the roads... I was indeed affected emotionally.

And as I read this poem below, I have had this one thing in my wretched mind- this is but,
A Great Inspiration.

The candle of My Life
Ninoy Aquino

I am burning the candle of my life
In the dark with no one to benefit
From its light

The candle slowly melts away
Soon its wick will be burned out
And the light is gone

IF someone will only gather
The melted wax, reshape it
Give it a new wick—
For another fleeting moment
My candle can once again
Light the dark
Be of service
One more time
And then…

Good-bye.



For the Last time, Tita Cory, let me give to you my last farewell...

My Deepest Gratitude... Farewell.... Godspeed...

Rh positive (+)

"...bottoms up!...:D"

.,what's wrong with being tipsy and drunk?... i still managed to go home all by myself anyway...

plus, i was able to post this up...

why do people drink (of course beer!)?... they said, i have a problem... how did they know?... if i myself on the first place didn't know i have such...

my vision is blurring... my eyes wants to shut... tired and intoxicated from duty... add it up with a very dull, quite boring, and a not much appreciable preparation and programs from the coordinators of the acquaintance party...

if anybody's happy... well, it's certainly not me...:D

good night everyone...

for my tankard mates, "CHEERS!!!..."

"Bottoms up!..."

A Total Stranger...

" I have felt this feeling again,

An emotion I have had before...

A Total Stranger on my place,

A place I considered as home.

My psyche, it kept on wandering...

Searching for places to Live on..."

-Angelo (//-x)...

Paggunita... (Reminiscing...)

"...anumang dahon na nalalagas sa isang puno ay dahan-dahang magkakasibol na muli..."

hindi ko mawari kung ano ang pumasok sa aking isipan kung bakit nagawa ko ang bagay na ito... basta ang alam ko lang, masaya ako habang nakikita ang mga larawang nagpapanumbalik sa mga pinakamasasayang ala-ala habang kapiling ko ang aking mga 'tunay na kaibigan'...

alam ko, walang permanenteng bagay na nalikha para magtagal dito sa mundo... ngunit alam ko rin na mayroon namang mga bagay o mga pangyayari na nagaganap upang ipanumbalik muli sa atin kung ano man yung mga bagay na maaari nating makaligtaan...

sa loob ng humigit-kumulang dalawang taon, ang mga taong ito ang aking nakasama sa paglikha ng mga ala-ala... mga ala-alang nagbigay kasiyahan at ngiti sa aking mga labi, at lungkot at mga luha sa aking mga mata sa kani-kaniyang mga pagkakataon... walang tao na kayang mabuhay nang nag iisa... gaano man kasaya o kagulo ang mundong kanyang ginagalawan sa iba't ibang panahon at pagkakataon... kinakailangan pa rin niya ng makakaramay upang punan ang isang kulang na bahagi upang mabuo ang isang masayang ala-ala...

ngayon, matapos ang mga masasayang panahong ito... ang mga bagay ay dumarating sa kani-kanilang kahahantungan... laging nagkakaroon ng pagbabago... walang nananatiling permanente sa nilikhang mundo... ang bawat naumpisahan, dumarating sa katapusan... ngunit sa bawat katapusang ito, muling sumisibol ang isang panibagong simula... isang simula na patuloy muling iinog... isang simula na nanggaling sa nakaraan at unti-unting gumagawa ng daan patungo sa kasalukuyan... kasalukuyang magdurugtong sa atin patungo sa hinaharap...

maaaring matapos ang isang samahan... maaaring mawala sa isang iglap ang mga bagay na hindi natin inaasahan... oh sa isang iglap rin mabago ang lahat-lahat...

hindi na muling maibabalik ang nakaraan... mabubuhay na lamang ang tao sa kanyang kasalukuyan... ngunit sa isang mumunting paglingon, maaari nating balikan ang mga bagay kung nanaisin... hindi sa pamamagitan ng pagbalik sa nakaraan, ngunit sa pamamagitan ng pagbuo sa naghihintay na hinaharap...

sa mga taong naging bahagi ng aking masaya, magulo, at mahirap na buhay kolehiyo; sa aking mga kaibigan, sana'y dumating ang pagkakataon na sabay sabay nating marating ang rurok ng tagumpay... ang muling lumikha ng kasiya-siyang mga sandali... at ang pagdidikit muli ng mga napipilas na pira-pirasong papel...

mula sa mga kathang isip na pagnanais... hanggang sa pagsasakatuparan ng mga ito...
sa bawat buhos ng inumin, at sa pagtaas ng mga baso... sa pagbabato ng mga bote, at pagsisigawang walang halaga (cheap:)...

"sa paglipas ng panahon, ang mga nalilikhang sugat ay unti-unting maghihilom...

katumbas ng anumang dahon na nalalagas sa isang puno at dahan-dahang nagkakasibol na muli..."


-angelo...=)

last and first...

.,i kept on asking myself if i have really convinced 'me' to stay on this situation or just hold back...

what's good about being a student nurse?... about failing to reach your aim?... about always struggling to get on track?...

i am just starting to travel the road which i have chosen. i don't know why i am here... i don't know what i am doing... i am facing every tomorrow with fear, anxious to do the things i don't really have no idea if i like (it)... i need to continue taking each and every step with people i know, like me, does not see the essence of being in this kind of situation right here, right now... having only a little empty heart for a caring and loving profession... a destiny waiting to be fulfilled, a vocation where there is no room for mistakes and errors...

honestly, idk if i still see a difference between schooling and studying... about exerting efforts and knowledge and by merely just going in and leaving out of the 'university' gate... i always wanted to feel or see even for some time a certain kind of flickering light... we can't always teach our hearts to be placed where it should be or rather where it wants to be... to feel this or that... compared to the one weighing above our heads...

i don't know if i am getting weak... losing strength psychologically, feeble physiologically, and frail spiritually... problems and struggles are undertaking me... i am slowly drawing out of my life...

change is a one thing that is constant in every person's life... and i will continue to undergo adjustments and some amendments for instances...

i wish i can do better... to have more rooms for improvements.... and much more for acceptance... if this is where i should be... if this is my destiny... if i can't manipulate where i want to be...

if wishes can only be dreams... and that dreams would only come true...

if and only if...

.,wan tru lab...

"True love may come more than once in a lifetime...."



"The last time i felt like this..."
-Words by: Alan Bergman and Marilyn Bergman
Music by: Marvin Hamlisch
Sung by: Johnny Mathis and Jane Oliver


Hello, I don't even know your name, but I'm hopin' all the same
This is more than just a simple hello.
Hello, do I smile and look away? No, I think I'll smile and stay
To see where this might go.

'Cause the last time I felt like this, I was falling in love,
Falling and feeling, I'd never fall in love again.
Yes, the last time I felt like this, was long before I knew
What I'm feeling now with you.

Hello, I can't wait till we're alone, somewhere quiet on our own
So that we can fall the rest of the way.
I know that before the night is thru, I'll be talking love to you,
Meaning every word I say.

'Cause the last time I felt like this I was falling in love,
Falling and feeling, I'd never fall in love again.
Yes, the last time I felt like this, was long before I knew
What I'm feeling now with you.

Oh, the last time I felt like this I was falling in love,
Falling and feeling, I'd never fall in love again.
Yes, the last time I felt like this, was long before I knew
What I'm feeling now with you.

....a very heart warming song in the course of the midnight blue... deep sentiments... emotions...

and the feeling of Love...



a one true love...

"The heart can remember what the mind might forget..."

.,an abled disable....

.,haizz.... i wonder why the world we live in is not fair... i have been to bagac a few minutes ago.... and i was really happy to be there the fourth time around i think.... even though it is just me and mi anghel dela guardia, the time that we have spent there has been fun .... how can i be sad when every time i go there i do nothing but eat... eat and guess what more???.... EAT!!!!!!......=) (thanks tita edna....)
ok now back to the title....
the story happened during the 'departing time'... i, myself and anghel dela guardia waits for the Jeep to gather more passengers and make the vehicle 'full' so that we can go....
Manong: "Oh pakiabot na lang yung bayad nyo oh..."(can you just please pass on your fares...)
(mi anghel dela guardia gave our payment to manong...)
Manong: "estudyante?...." (students?)
Mi anghel dela guardia: "opo manong"... (yes manong)
A not so old lady heard that conversation and said....
Ale: "etong bayad, dalawang liang, isang balanga...."(here's our payment two passengers going to liang and one to balanga....) the NSOL gave a hundred pesos and the conductor asked for an additional six pesos...
Ale2: "magkano ho ba hanggang liang?...." (how much is the fare to liang?...)
Manong: "beinte otso ho isa... 56 kayong dalawa tapos isang balanga 50...." (28pesos each, 56pesos for the two of you and 50 pesos for the other lady...)
Ale: "estudyante eah..."... (the other one is a student...)
and she looked at me upon saying those words to manong... what is that thing that she wants to imply?.... well, it is not my problem anymore.... i paid for my part.... and we are recognized as students because we are in our uniform... and the girl that she was talking about is on a civilian outfit... so it won't be valid...=) hahahaha....lols....
while we are waiting there all things are just in a normal condition... but not when this entity showed up having a non typical 'getlook'.... yes... he's the one that i am pertaining to in the title.... he is a disabled man on a wheel chair... i do not know what was the reason why he went to a far off place having no one with him.... his legs are like a rotten vegetable... with no definite support... it sways as he climbs his way through the Jeep....
it is like, the clocked has stopped ticking for all the people in there... as in all the people waiting for another trip to balanga.... they are all merely looking at the disabled human being like it is the only time that they have seen one.... what those people don't know is that some other observant individuals also look at them waiting for their reactions.... i do not know what are those that they feel during that time... all i know is that they are looking at that 'fighter' with all those 'judging' eyes....
good thing for that individual, he was helped by the conductor on climbing his way up to his seat.... near the door...
Fighter: "salamat po manong, salamat... eto pong bayad ko... magkano ba hanggang balanga?..." (thank you so much mister... thank you.... here's my fare... how much is it?...)
he was asked to pay just forty pesos coz he is a disabled citizen... and thanks for the consideration of the conductor.... and he did not stop saying 'thank you' to those concerned individuals who helped him up to the time when he already need to get down the vehicle.... even if he does not get even a single 'welcome' he continuously says thank you to every one....
i was really touched by that man's condition... i am walking with my two feet with my legs all functional.... but at times i make indifferent or negative comments when i feel so tired from walking... his condition made me realize how blessed am i to have all my body parts working or functioning well.... that there are things we posses which in most times- not appreciated... that we, on our every day life should be thankful about all the things that we have and be contented on it.... rather than to seek for those things that we can classify as a 'better' one which in turn can disregard those important little details we posses....