Puzzled...

"Somebody Up There Somewhere... Does Love Me..."

.,I am really confused right now... feelings overlap each other... am i nervous or excited?...
just 3 or 4 hours left and our time is closely coming... we are now gonna be exposed to the real world... our diverse fields of endeavor... what does the cap and/or the pin symbolize?... and the light that is offered by the candle?... their true meanings will be revealed on the right time, the right place, with right individuals...

soon i will be wearing this white stuffs below... i don't know what to expect upon arriving at the situation... this is it... there is no turning back... the only way to travel is straight across the track...
later, we are going to Utter the Nightingale Pledge and make music with our voices... The Filipino Nurses' Hymn speaks for the and/or about the profession... and about 800 wishful student nurses are going to mark this day, 7th of July, year 2009 - the unveiling of their lives as future Professionals/ Registered Nurses... Serving not only their countrymen but also the whole wide world in general...

I'm gonna take one sure, slow step at a time... with my heart and mind equally open...

I may not be in certain about how i feel, but i am much positive of one thing, That Somebody Up there somewhere will guide me, teach me, help me, and really Does Love me...

After all, it's still friendship which counts...

.,winners never quit... and quitters never win...^_^

i am still in a very incomprehensible situation right now... i was buried deep down by my instructor last Monday... i am still sick up to now... (this started last week, i had fever, stomach aches, head aches, i was to break down this afternoon and then got really sick, i have never gotten enough sleep since last saturday; slept at two or three in the morning and wake up at 5 or 5:30 just to get to my first subject...) i never felt that good regarding school works... i am so tired of being a leader though i really have to be a good one... its not my choice nor do i want it to happen to me... what's with me?... does everybody really want me to die earlier than what is planned?... i definitely don't have a charm to lead others but i don't know if people really believes i can do things more than ordinary... or am i speaking for themselves for the refreshing sound of being me?...

i haven't got any idea how to cope with stress, stressful situations and depression... i was over fatigued... literally restless and unhappy of the situations...

though other people tries to bring my group down by doing something out of their 'conscience'... i believe... that the world will still keep on turning... and in that way, time will come... the sun will soon be shinning towards our place... and the the other brighter place will now be experiencing to live in the dark, though there's still the presence of the moonlight, it is still insufficient to brighten their wholly dark night... and i know, we can still make it up....

the stars will soon be kneeling down... we will rise up and slowly dig and pound rocks into ashes...

after all, it is still friendship which counts... and i am happy i have it...:)
thanks for all these people within my circle...
and the One on Top of it...

change is constant, in both positive and negative ways....

.,another long day....

.,I wonder how i survive everyday that is passing by.... hahaha... honestly.... I always feel so ehausted.... I don't know.... I am a volunteer for this Intramurals.... I started helping the officers yesterday and I say that is really what I call 'work'... hahaha.... I won't enumerate what are those that I did, (humble=)... hahaha...=) good'luck.... we are all in duty today... and it was really exhausting.... hahaha...=) i am really tired right now but I really need to do this.....
that was a very memorable opening for me.... that was the time when I realized, "Hey, I'm part of this...." hahaha...=) that was the time when I felt that this is my university... that we are one in our world... sometimes I still think 'why i did let my self volunteer...' hahaha... but I realized, that this is just a one in a million experience that I am surely going to treasure..... hahaha...=) that was a very nice start for us.... (i include myself there...=) hahaha...=) some people always say that we can't enjoy the Intramurals.... asking why we volunteered but, if there is a lot million reasons to quit, well i should have done that earlier.... hahaha... but no.... I am happy with where I am... with what I am doing.... I am happy helping others help the university.... atleast I am spending my time with worthy things.... not just like others who just fool around...=)
hahaha...=)
I love it when I see them happy... that they are satisfied with what we have done.... hahaha...=)





This is really a very day.... hahaha...=) I have had some reconciliations made.... hahaha...=) I think this should have not taken that long.... hahaha...=) I don't know.... that pride is such an isht.... hahaha...=) I hate it...... that was a year ago since we last talked to each other.... hahaha.... i am also a martyr.... hahaha...=) I have really controlled my feelings that long... am I bad!?.... hahaha.... he said 'sorry', which I should have never permitted.... I am the one who owe that person an apology and i never did... hahha... it is not that important anymore.... on who did what.... hahaha... what is important is that... we are already fine.... I just feel incomplete during those times.... hahaha... well i admit it, its my fault.... or I own a part there... hahaha...=) at least now it ended.... and I am ready to make a new start.... hahaha...=) I just hope that that would not happen anymore.... hahaha...=) how I really wish.... hahha...=) well good'luck to both of us.... I just hope God will guide our relationship as friends.... that that evil be not present on our life.... he's not angry with me.... hahaha.... I really idolize that person.... hahaha... we are totally different.... he is a person of few pride... hahaha...=) non sense!?.... hahaha.... I've taken so much time here on the shop.... and I'm already feeling my bed near me... hahaha...=) I need to sleep.... I still have a work to do tomorrow... I am an agent... hahaha...=) isn't that nice!?...
Good night now.... till next time...=)