.,into my distress...

.,okay we have had our 'practical exam/ moving exam' on microbio after the flag ceremony... and as usual... the activity followed an alphabetical order arrangement on whom shall get inside the room first... i have never been used to it even if i am always put at first... i wish i can change my surname... haizzz... i've never felt anything like that before... i was like uhm so edgy i don't know why... that was the first time i felt so really anxious about that kind of exam... and yet, the results show... i skipped some questions and was so uneasy to find the answers... its like my brain is all piled up... a pure bold blank appeared... argh... that was fifteen items all in all... and we were given a minute to take a look at the microscope and answer the questions taped on the table... sometimes three questions... some two at a time... then the bell rings... 'ting.... ting.... ting...' the sound still haunts my brain...

.....answering question number one... a.)...., b.)....., c.)...... (blank, blank, blank.... thinking... digging... nothing...) the bell rings.... 'ting... ting...' answers flashed...when I was on question number two... "was that bacillus anthracis?... a gram positive bacteria?..." aaaahhhh... wasting time...

that was some kinda' traumatic... the sound of that tiny little bell was retained into my mind... hahaha....

-----------------------no second subject (brain rest... but still thinking)---------------------

10:30- third and last subject... boring.... but that's a major one...

"okay class ngayon ako yung magdi- discuss..." we get our hand outs... talk... talk.... talk.....
i do not really understand anything....
time passed... recitation... "what's the difference between 'this' and 'that'... how can you explain this... ano pa?... give us an example.... elaborate...." these are the words we always hear from her.... i heard something like it is 'a part of the teaching strategy'.... or to find out if her students 'learns something from her'... i don't know...

more talk.... talk.... talk... and much talk....

discussion.... OVER.....

"okay quiz... put down all your things.... hindi na 'ko magpapalabas...(that is doing the exam by batch...) every body was terrified... shocked.... and alarmed... no one listened to that discussion i guess... including myself... no exemptions... we know there would probably be enumeration... 'walang ganun sa board... anu toh?...' (is there an enumeration type of exam on the Nursing Licensure Examination?... i just wonder...) 'this isn't fair...'- i have just said to myself...
"there are announced quizzes... and there are surprise ones... and i do not really like the latter... got no preparations... have not listened to the senseless discussion and most of all, the type of exam was some kinda' silly... lols....

my classmates says that it was a revenge for she got low grades on the recently concluded teacher's performance evaluation... which is certainly and exactly true... i think she doesn't deserve those very very low grades but i guess the other students are just bias and unfair on giving the lowest grades on all fields and aspect of teaching at the evaluation form... some other students gave foul opinions regarding the professor's persona... which were quite offensive to her part...

but the point is, both sides have had their own slip-ups... and neither one of them wants to accept the fact that they have made their own faults which have caused the big misunderstanding.... there are times when the old aged people won't really accept the fact that they have done a wrong stuff.... and the young ones are making fun of them cause they seem to not comprehend to the empathy of the other...

give way.... take time.... cross roads....